met up with her yesterday..passed her her stuff..quite weird..still feel like loving her and protecting her once more..but its not whether i want, is if she still think there is still a little chance again..movie and dinner only..nth much..after that bought tau huay and went over to find someone i feel comfortable to talk..den reach home 12 plus tired liao..but still game til 3 plus..bored man..

going get all B? good enough? haix..disappointing so far..

feeling so distracted and unmotivated..cant wait to finish it all..

for once i need to hide away without anyone disturbing..

stupid papers so difficult so far

i'm just so pekchek now

i'm a confused person..

today is her exams liao..i prayed for her to do well..i din meant wad i said the last time so really, let her do well..she did studied for them alot..

i also gotta study liao..although quite distracted for awhile already..my exams coming and i not even in the mood to study for them..haix..

these 2 weeks not well, think gastric back again cos irregular meals again..actually more of no appetite la..and mood also not very good either but its ok..sch is just a mundane period now..damn sick of it liao but there still finals to take..til end of month

what i want in life..

spent some time thinking of what i want in life

short term goals:
1) graduate from CBC with a second class honours at least
2) get my driver licenses
3) earn some money
4) find love (on hold for now)

long term goals:
i got to decide between working in a financial industry and pursuing something that gave me greater satisfaction, which is teaching. so now after reorganising my thoughts these are what i want
1) get a masters degree and go on to be a lecturer specialising in organic chemistry
2) get a car, and be financially independent
3) find my happiness
4) give my family a better life

actually i like to teach what i know to others, so rather than be a mainstream teacher, i think getting a master degree will be better for me to get a higher teaching post and make use of what i learnt more efficiently.

last note..i'm tired liao..but i wont be like last time and make u suffocate by forcing an answer out of you..whatever makes u happy just go with it ba..i will be ok..u always have a place in my heart..