life is not a waiting room

2009-05-05T20:53:00.002+08:00

right.. what had i done so far. hmms. after exams and after that badminton session with the ntu guys, friday i met up with my brothers. we played basketball after so long under the super hot morning sun, got abit of sun burnt and felt heated for the rest of the day. seriously tampines is like another boonlay. we got 3 shopping malls and all were bloody full for labour day. hard to find a decent place to have lunch. after lunch i went home had a bath and nua in front of com watching my korean drama. which i watched with no time limit. all 172 episodes finished by sunday. i almost peng from it. my sat was spend obviously on the drama since i wanted to chiong finish it. sunday was spent watching the drama, den evening movies with my brothers.. watched x-men origins: wolverine. it was nice though, before going home i went popular to get myself a book, angels and demons by dan brown. i want to watch the movie too!! been shopping less for clothes already. i want to buy wii with the guitar hero band set la! i calculated to be 575 in total for the cheapest one. i want to buy!! sunday was spend reading angels and demons. very exciting book. monday was spent looking for jobs. damn sian abt the jobs. no replies. tues was spend facebooking and reading and having an evening run. man this is life after exams. just nua.

2009-04-29T11:42:00.002+08:00

finally finish my exams!! and yesterday went out straight after the exams and walked around orchard. changed alot there already. den my group of guys and madeline group of gals we head towards shokudo to have our dinner. ordered quite a lot of food la. but end up the bill not that ex lor..ard 15 per person. that was the first meal of the day only. after that we went to bugis to walk walk and have ice -cream. rums and raisins! nice.. the rum taste very heavy i like lor. not like the normal kind, no rum taste. haa..walk til super tired. come home super tired also liao..

damage report after all the papers,

MB 103, the really need to pray hard paper.
MAS 182, the should not S/U but can get S paper.
CBC 112, this paper is manageable, hoping for A- but really depends on others also.
PAP 182, i should be able to scrap through for a pass.
CBC 122, easy paper but i super careless, mcq 3 wrongs, part A i subpart wrong. so haix. was hoping to get A but B+ more likely liao. sad man.

results on 22 may. hope for the best.

now i go haf fun first.

2009-04-27T15:12:00.002+08:00

yes!!! finally reaching the last paper. 2 weeks worth of exams is a torture, especially during this hot weather. and plus dunno wads wrong with me this sem, studying seems quite difficult to me.

so far,

MB 103- first paper that scared the shit out of me. my 40% for CA is A, but my 60% oh no! hopefully can scrap through with a B+.

MAS 182- second paper. I S/U it, cos not really confident. but definately can get the S. regretted S/U-ing it.

CBC 112- third paper, easier compared to last year, but i adopted the tactic of scoring well for those i know. so i think if possible hope to get A-/B+

PAP 182- fourth paper. had it today. nvr prepare well. just anyhow whack during the exam. but i think the pass is possible, so a P for it, since it is a P/F module.

CBC 122- last paper! tmr will be taking it. i hope to do well for this ba. since its e last paper of the sem liao.

den can enjoy le! yes!!

2009-04-25T15:20:00.003+08:00

hmms veyr long nvr update liao, cos been pretty busy handling sch work. and its the exam period. so far 3 papers had passed, left with 2 on consecutive days. which is a hell lot to study. have been trying to squeeze in 2 modules of whole sem work into 3 days to finish which is pretty hard. quite sian abt it, and the weather is too hot, too conducive to hibernate la.

3 papers passed, MB103 proved to be the shocker. most difficult paper i ever sat for. the rest, MAS 182, S/U wrongly lols. manageable paper which i think can get B+? and CBC 112, not as shocking as last years CBC 111, hopefully i can get abit better than last years grade.

left physics and biochem, 2 of the subjects i totally nvr touch in jc or sec sch. so gotta work harder. and slp lesser. and use more aircon to study.

other than that, cant wait for everything to be over so that i can go out and haf fun and work and hols.

2009-03-16T22:38:00.003+08:00

wa updates..

hmmm another test had passed for bio..i wondered how i fared..definately 1 wrong la..helicase..omg!!! i forgot!!!

now i keep trying to have a timetable for my daily activities to improve my efficiency rate..so far ok..hitting 80% efficiency.. now really gotta make good use of time la..

now trying to study physics so tmr i can do my assignment that needed to be handed in..

and i thInk i'm addicted to online shopping, recently bought seinhesser headphones, ralph lauren bag, and geoffery beene shirt la!! i shld stop at the shirt.. no more online shopping til i start my summer work.. =X

just attempted that bloody physics la! angry man. wasted my whole afternoon trying to figure out all the answers for it..only 3 questions done. its qns 3 that give me bloody headache and totally spoil my mood for the day..freaking waste of time. dunno why the fuck we need to take it for. its not like year 3 we still will remember pap181 and 182. damn it..

now moving onto my schedule. NMR done. read what he taught so far. tmr shall pay attention in his NMR lecture. left my mas 182 exercise 10.2 to do, read nucleic acids and intermolecular forces. zzz!! waste time la physics. if not would haf done more today.

2009-03-08T00:03:00.004+08:00

Settlers' Cafe with the buddies and 2 gfs.
timbre with uni frens.
see, i also act cute already.

hmmms lets see whats happening so far for me..

well, its sch time again. time for some damage report.

so far 4 mid terms, update since i got back the results

CBC 112, 5/7 for quiz. ( 10%)
CBC 122, 99/100 for mid term 1(will consitute 40/3 %)
PAP 182, 8/10 for quiz (10%)
MAS 182, 48/60 (26%)

actually i know my maths not very good actually la.

MB103, first graded presentation, A+. happy but will work harder for marketing plan to ensure 50% is A+ la but looks like marketing plan will be very difficult to do as we gotta consider more things than before liao to make it successful.

gonna mug more for my CBC 122 test these few days liao.

sch is so boring.

been going out more often with frens. not focused at sch at all.

fell in love with long island ice tea. its a nice drink for me.

been to timbre, i like that place. my kind of place.

been to settler's cafe for the first time. cool to play some board games some times too.

beside. nth much or interesting so far leh. needs some colour to my life.

2009-02-18T20:12:00.002+08:00

damn sian man today CBC 112 test.. haix 2 wrongs 1 pending lor..kns man..7 qns only..2 common sense qns cocked up..super sian la..i really need to sleep less in sumod's class and be more consistent and haf more common sense in doing work..argh! still got pap 182 to handle..

2009-02-16T22:57:00.002+08:00

alright a little update.. friday i skipped sch cos 1 hr. just dun make any time economic sense to go down for class, so i stayed home to study for CBC 112 la. right now the CBC 112 is still 15% unclear of the stuff so will practice abit tmr b4 sleep. PAP 182 is horrible. started studying them left ch 3,4 8b. tmr will be reading them and try understand as much as i can le..fri quiz GG liao..dun like physics.

friday sent off KJ to australia for his studies. i wished him all the best and reminded him to buy some whitening cream if racism gets too bad over there. haha.. he told me australia is now really on fire, as in brown patches all over. sian.

our neighbouring countries once again start their burning activities. so the haze is back. i'm very allergic to haze and it had caused me cough and bad nose and fever for 2 days liao.. so sian lor..stupid haze.. need wear oxygen mask to sch.. brain using alot of oxygen to run liao still got haze.. so now brain functioning capacity halved..zzz

today went to see doc finally.. got the proper medication la..been self medicating lor..zzz

now still reading for test damn sian..cant wait for recess week..gonna slp soon too..medication making me sleepy le..yawns..

anyway bought a new watch..happy! its a casio edifice series watch, analog with 3 dials on it..cool sia..replace my fossil watch..haha..gonna buy more clothes and pants soon..retail therapy..

2009-02-11T23:02:00.002+08:00

quite long nvr do a proper update liao.

firstly i was really occupied with sch stuff..makes me real busy and no life la.. been trying to be consistent in my sch work but it makes me real tired le..cos all the lecturers like difficult to understand so i end up doing alot of self study la. which kills alot of brain cells.

wad happened recently? CNY lor..just collect angbao.. this year quite special. cos b4 CNY, me and my 9 other good buddies got gather for reunion dinner.. den also got go visit some of their houses. but other than that CNY was bored la..get older liao more bored.

now, still as busy as ever with sch work..today got a bio test. can get full mark de!! lost 4 marks due to blurness.. sian.. 2 marketing projects due in 3 weeks time la. 2 tests next week totally nvr touch la.. jialat man. must pray hard.

friday intending to skip sch cos 1 hr sch nia..so i most prob will skip sch and wake up earlier at home to study real hard.. haix..see whole blog other than study nth liao..zzz

sat gonna be V-day. this year v-day will super emo liao man..at least last time in sec sch or jc still got ppl will give me v-day gifts..wa i think this time in uni dun haf liao man..so sad lor..actually v-day i wan to spend my evening outside watch movie cos really very long nvr watch le..but dunno want to make any plans ma..cos no ppl date also ma..so busy til nvr really got time to date.

so depressing man..so busy..no life liao la!!!

2009-02-01T23:16:00.002+08:00

i felt relieved. cos when i saw her changing her status, i'm not affected anymore. which means i'm past her already. which is good. meaning i can work hard on my studies and make myself available again. i wun give up a tree for the whole forest, but doesnt mean i will pick any other tree. i will pick the tree that has its roots entangled with mine. haha..relieved man..

i'm a workaholic and a shopaholic..die man. haha, one kill brain cells, one kill money..GG already.

time to enjoy myself more.

2009-01-26T22:41:00.002+08:00

finally i gave myself a little break again. been so long since i really have a break since sch started. camped at home due to having no dates. so ya! stayed home being myself slacking all that and watch dramas lor. watched finished new heart,e korean drama abt heart surgery de..den watched 10 promises to my dog. wa i want a golden retriever la!! and now watching forensics heroes 2 lor.. enjoying time slacking..now just wait to collect ang pao and wait for sch start. but den v day coming already. going emo liao haha

emo-ing again!

2009-01-20T23:18:00.002+08:00

was reading thru my physics and bio lecture notes just now. feeling damn depressing. foreign lecturers already bad enuff, now their notes not even qualitative to let a noob like me to understand e concepts. i got no A level Physics, no O and A level Bio. already struggling to catch up and bad notes doesnt help. hai.. emo-ing.. now sleep is the best cure.

2009-01-16T23:29:00.003+08:00

well its the new year. so new updates. and new link.

the reason why i named my blog this way because, life is not a waiting room. u dun wait for things to happen. u fight for wad u wan. and i will live my life fighting for wad i wan. i hope u guys will too.

this year for the first few months of the semester, my goal is to go for all my tutorials, be more consistent in my work, study abit before going for lecture and maintain and improve my gpa. i will also start joining a proper cca in e form of WSC -VM. might want to get into committee. i will also exercise 3 times a week to start conditioning myself for ICT and also to lose some fats.

and i want to put the past behind. so a new start to the year and hope it will be an entertaining year for me.

to the people i know, happy new year. to weixiang. happy birthday. to peiying although ur bday not here, u proclaim 1st of jan ur bday. to cheryl, happy birthday too and i haven get the gals out to meet u yet. and to everyone i dunno, i will try to get to know u. but rest assured no mlm or insurance. haa.

and CNY faster come leh, i want a little holiday.

2009-01-01T14:21:00.000+08:00

angry with myself.

i just wanna talk with you, but u are so cold i cant do anything.

i just wanna see u, but u are so reluctant everytime i want to meet u for a meal and i cant do anything.

i just wanna hug u and tell u that u meant the world to me, but i cant do anything either.

i just wanna kiss u and tell u how sorry i am and can e new year haf a new start for us, but i cant do anything.

why cant i do all these? when i can do every other thing.

retribution for being bad to u.

i nvr let u know how u meant to me when we were together, but

U MEANT THE WORLD TO ME. thats hw impt u are to me and why did i let u go.

remembering our trip tgt to tw. how i wish we were there forever just e 2 of us living happily there.

2009-01-01T01:32:00.000+08:00

today marks an end to the year 2008. memories still fresh from the year. happy and sad.

today went out for dinner, movie and supper with my gang. this year we went downtown east for countdown. got concert there not bad to go and hear hear. movie was at e-hub. i nvr movied there b4 this was e first time. watched "yes man". not bad a show.

today b4 i went out, i hope to see her today. den i reached e hub with my gang. b4 movie i check out e jubeat station to hope to see if she might be there. i thought to myself, if fate allows i will get to see her today. so b4 movie nvr see. after movie i got this kind of feeling of someone close is ard someone i can feel her presence for.so i look ard, then i saw her playing jubeat. tapped her and say hi and left. felt weird after that. fate let me see her. hmms, too bad nt with her, if not i would like to spend e final seconds and first few seconds of the year with her. but this also good. at least i get to see her just even for the few seconds and all. oh well. she's jus my someone special. sorry guys. this the only gal i love.

all right. start of the new year. time to haf a good start. tmr shall run. and make sure i do wad i set for e new year.

2008-12-30T20:59:00.000+08:00

its been so many months since i broke up with her. and other ppl had appeared in my life, but there is no one that seems right or i feel right about. now end up hurting other ppl liao. sian man. my fren asked me if i really loved someone or just want someone. i think i have e answer now. because when really loved someone, this someone will be irreplaceable in the heart. and she was irreplaceable til now. feeling very frustrated now cos i know she's e one for me, but i dunno what or how she will feel again. i hurted her badly the other time, no matter what still will leave a scar. i also want to forget what happened, want to love and protect her again and swear to god this time round i will make it right. but right now really frustrated, cos i dunno how to talk to her. i dunno how not to make her sian dunno how to make her happy. but if i got the chance, i will get my courage to announce to the whole world that i only haf her in mind. and i meant a physical action to be done. but all things gotta wait. time. can only write here to her that i love her. and seriously regretted alot for hurting her and wish to hold her in my arms again.

2008-12-27T23:55:00.000+08:00

that day afternoon had a nap cos was tired..had a little dream but was very sweet..i dreamt i was with her again..very sweet but short..but if real life its this way then good..rotted at home again after going out for a few days..kinda sian..results coming..pray hard ba..

2008-12-22T23:25:00.001+08:00

am i regretting the decision? i think i might be..

2008-12-21T22:22:00.001+08:00

super sick now..sometimes very hot sometimes very cold..make me very hard to fall asleep also again..dunno why sick will think of her more..i dunno how to start a conversation..something i realised..dunno afraid of wad also..haix..i shld just slp alot alot so that i wont think that much.

shld i see doc tmr?

2008-12-20T16:00:00.000+08:00

so i've been hiding my feelings all along?

my temper, my stubborness would have stop me from seeing her again. but why did i bother to find her again? i finally realised. thinking that i forgot her, but in fact i nvr. seeing her get hurt, i was already quite sian liao..panicking when i realise i lost her frens number..couldnt get anyone to go check on her immediately..facebook also quite useless..i had to appear by her side to make sure its ok.

meeting her just make me feel like protecting her again..sick of looking from a far to make sure she is ok.i just wan to be with her to protect her.if not for that stupid mistake no one would haf got hurt nth would had happened if i nvr let her go.

i was there because i cared alot for u, no matter what, i just wan u to be happy.maybe without me, u were happy, but i just dun wan see u get hurt. i know what i wan, its u. i just wan to be ard u, just wan to appreciate ur smile again.

but i know maybe it still quite difficult for u now, but i already knew what i wan. but shall not force shall not hope too much. because i'm afraid too sometimes. but then again no matter what i still wan to see u happy. and care for u.

time to build up my karma level.

2008-12-11T23:33:00.000+08:00

actually i know what i want for my future.

this current job that i have doesnt go well with my personality, i'm not one who go pestering ard, and i still prefer to teach what i know. so obviously sales is not what's for me in the future. maybe as a lecturer that will be my calling.. and thats provided i further my studies til at least a masters.

i want to start afresh again. although i spend a large part of this one and a half year with someone special,but this someone special had left me.felt moments of having lost everything, so i just want to start afresh,rebuilding all i got..i'm particularly sorry for the scar i gave her..i did loved her alot but i messed up alot too..i know some scar wont heal so easily..just like my hand now,a crack that wont go away.

now, i'm closing the door of this special one, but just that once in awhile there's lingering thoughts. and i cant do anything liao. 23dec maybe i wont be there liao. cos i dunno if that is the right thing to do anymore.

i'm opening a door, but i'm holding the door back because i'm not really sure if thats the right one..but i felt fine and happy. but i guess i still need to wait for the right moment. close to right person, wrong timing..

well suddenly moody again..but thats how life la..always work like a sine curve no matter what.

and the story abt plucking the moon.

i wont pluck earth moon, cos this will cause tide to rise and flood the whole world. i will pluck jupiter moon, i plucked metis. jupiter got 57 moons so jupiter lose 1 he also dunno. this is what happen when u are too clever. u cant be romantic. -_-"

2008-12-09T00:57:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling confused liao..am i falling for another person liao..really dunno leh..although quite contented now with things being this way but am i really closing a door and opening up another door?later same thing again how?so confusing..but at least had fun when this person is ard..

2008-11-30T13:34:00.000+08:00

met up with her yesterday..passed her her stuff..quite weird..still feel like loving her and protecting her once more..but its not whether i want, is if she still think there is still a little chance again..movie and dinner only..nth much..after that bought tau huay and went over to find someone i feel comfortable to talk..den reach home 12 plus tired liao..but still game til 3 plus..bored man..

2008-11-20T19:44:00.000+08:00

going get all B? good enough? haix..disappointing so far..

feeling so distracted and unmotivated..cant wait to finish it all..

for once i need to hide away without anyone disturbing..

2008-11-18T23:29:00.000+08:00

stupid papers so difficult so far

i'm just so pekchek now

i'm a confused person..

2008-11-03T21:12:00.000+08:00

today is her exams liao..i prayed for her to do well..i din meant wad i said the last time so really, let her do well..she did studied for them alot..

i also gotta study liao..although quite distracted for awhile already..my exams coming and i not even in the mood to study for them..haix..

2008-11-01T17:49:00.000+08:00

these 2 weeks not well, think gastric back again cos irregular meals again..actually more of no appetite la..and mood also not very good either but its ok..sch is just a mundane period now..damn sick of it liao but there still finals to take..til end of month

what i want in life..

spent some time thinking of what i want in life

short term goals:
1) graduate from CBC with a second class honours at least
2) get my driver licenses
3) earn some money
4) find love (on hold for now)

long term goals:
i got to decide between working in a financial industry and pursuing something that gave me greater satisfaction, which is teaching. so now after reorganising my thoughts these are what i want
1) get a masters degree and go on to be a lecturer specialising in organic chemistry
2) get a car, and be financially independent
3) find my happiness
4) give my family a better life

actually i like to teach what i know to others, so rather than be a mainstream teacher, i think getting a master degree will be better for me to get a higher teaching post and make use of what i learnt more efficiently.

last note..i'm tired liao..but i wont be like last time and make u suffocate by forcing an answer out of you..whatever makes u happy just go with it ba..i will be ok..u always have a place in my heart..

2008-10-28T18:36:00.001+08:00

i miss her..

but i gotta study for now..

argh

2008-10-11T17:00:00.000+08:00

e person i felt the most apologetic to is her..as her bf that time, i thought i was good.. but my temper wasnt good, and resulted in violent actions and shouting at her saying all those senseless things..i guess sometimes the things i do really cost me alot..and it cost me her..but now no matter how much i still think of e past, no matter part of me still wish she was still with me, no matter a part of me still love her, but its kind of hard already..i'm like gonna be out of her life,but i at some point dun wish to cos i still wan to turn back time to be with her..suddenly i thought of all e promises made to her, and i thought i'm like nvr made up to her properly like e dan bing that i said i will figure out hw to do when coming back from taiwan..these little promises and little things in life let me thought how bad i was as a person at that time..but now say all these also useless..i some sort became like her also..dunno wad i wan now too..dunno wad to do with myself..i just wish i can play god and turn back time and erase that day from her mind and my mind too..i'm sorry to you..

now i really need that belly laugh.. =(

2008-10-06T20:35:00.000+08:00

i realised i got no guts to like someone anymore..very tired lor..very sianed to see her on the train that day..felt like whole person gonna break down la..my first relationship ended bitterly..but its all e past..if i can move on, i will be happier..

maybe i shldnt do so much for anyone anymore..

fan nao-s

2008-10-02T21:10:00.000+08:00

aiya dunno wad i wan also man..sch also not exactly smooth la..just wan a second class honours only but disappointing results so far lor..ever since break up things haven been smooth yet lor..realised my heart turned cold liao..e natural smile wasnt there anymore..although still will laugh all that at some jokes but end of the day u just know i wasnt the same anymore..if i cant smile naturally from e heart means i'm really that down..but i wan to be on the up..i wan to be able to compete with everyone in sch..i know i'm a slow starter, lack of natural talent but i made it up for hardworking but it had not paid off yet..uni pace really too fast and so much happened so far i just couldnt concentrate alot..today bio class i was listening well and understood the whole thing..but towards e end 5 mins my mind was on e past again and i jus din listen to lec again..sianed man..i also wan to move on..but so complicated stuff are now..i dun even know wad i wan liao..just like sch..today just dunno why i am in sch for..why am i in this course..when i could have taken business la..sian man..someone make me smile pls..let me find my natural smile back..

2008-09-28T00:12:00.000+08:00

pekchek again..when theres no one ard, u just like to think of the past..the present gets affected..and i'm damn pekchek over it liao..i just wanna study and haf as much fun as i can..but have to see how..sometimes things wont go away..

F1 is cool..i liked it..and like the time i spend out on fri night with py..i swear with her ard i gonna not stop laughing..

2008-09-24T20:27:00.000+08:00

wow..today meant to be a study session ..but guess just din have the mood in the morning..not the study prime time..sian man..so like kind of wasted the time out but i liked today..
met py for study de..but seriously no mood man..wa hols also like mug like mad..how can..i must at least enjoy abit..so ya did abit of stuff den go slack ard le..ate at crystal jade..yummy..lols..her bday present from me..den went home hibernate now going to mug le..

2008-09-21T23:40:00.001+08:00

i must make up my mind..harden my heart and not keep going back to the same stuff..really man..i shall let her go and let myself go too..no point keep holding on to her when she wont care abt u anymore..why not divert ur energy to other places that can help u be happier..tmr i shall do it..but today i just pray for her to study hard and enjoy her life..like how i found part of me when i had fun with my gang..10 % of wad i was b4 when i knew wads love..

2008-09-19T23:37:00.000+08:00

i feel lonely..and there's alot of things that remind me of the times with her..wonderful but nvr gonna happen again..i myself will not want to get e r/s back..as i realised i've not really been treated very well..happy with her company but really happy deep down? i not really sure..i cant deny every nw and then will miss her..but its time to let go..my mid terms so far..not very encouraging..and with more tests coming up..i can only keep working hard..

its really complicated now lor my life..at first i thought this person wil be my source of laughter in sch..but i nvr knw she faced e same problem as me..we just cant forget e past we had..seeing this person just like me..i felt like treating her better and protecting her to some extent..but really doing this may seems funny to others..and myself..r/s is 2 way..and i want my next one to be a good one..i had my first one..unforgettable..not regretable..but its a lost la..nv will forget the good times..and nv will forget when i need support she wasnt there..i also need support in my life..but she chose not to stand by me except my parents and michelle..my good female buddy..i hope my life can better from nw on..

whats up so far

2008-09-14T23:22:00.000+08:00

well broke up for close to 3 weeks..not a word of concern at all..so think i just can let her go ba..no point making myself miserable..just look forward in sch lor..no choice ma..there will be other things to focus on too..esp my studies..althought i broke up at the wrong time, it wasnt my choice..just felt badly treated and i din deserve such break up at a time when my studies is going to be tough and all..well..i just stand up by myself and with the help of my family and a couple of good frens like michelle..now i will be stronger and at least now i know what i look in love and a person..still will get distracted here and there but i will focus on studies and career..hoping to close some cases soon la and get things started at least..i will be fine..uni stuff is definately getting a few notches higher than jc..i shall utilize my upcoming term break well and find ppl to study with me if nt i stay home will get distracted..i haven movied or shopped for a long time..need some company some day..if nt i gonna go crazy..sch definately stress.
i think my health is nt very good now..today fainted..cos i was lying down to mug den i stood up den heart very pain den i fainted liao..took some time to wake up..faster go drink water after that le..scary la..haix..when things dun go ur way u are down on ur luck..anything can happen..

i'm going to buy a bible and keep it by my side and use it as my spiritual support.

god bless me den..

the heart shatters like how e bones do.

2008-08-31T22:57:00.000+08:00

well well well..my title tells everything..
the heart shatters like how e bones do.
well i think i just cracked my 4th and 5th knuckles and my wrist with the terrible anger in me today..of because of her insensitivity..when ur dear cracked his hand out of anger, u are just there to look and give sacarstic remarks.
well it looks like i'm nth to u.

the heart shatters like how the bones do now.

last lap of studying, the stress is there definately

2008-07-23T18:46:00.000+08:00

well passed HI and M9, leaving e last paper M5 to tackle.
i think this one is mostly self-study as e trainers they had were quite useless. they breeze thru the whole book and talk more abt their life stories den what to concentrate on.
its a badly written book actually and yes i left 12 pages of it to do i think. crap why am i torturing myself this way.

yes its for a better financial future hopefully and earn for my needs. and for her thats why i came to join this line. to make her happy with things she like but cant buy.

as promised a new blog before uni starts

2008-07-13T23:24:00.000+08:00

i've opened up this new blog again. for me i know eventually i still need somewhere to vent my sadness, my anger. and maybe share my happiness if there is any.

right uni starting quite soon in august, i'm not really prepared yet, hopefully i can make it there.

now dabbling with insurance line, studying for the test is not a fun thing. m9, 26 chapters study til mad. and hope to pass no matter what.

me, i really need to change my temper and my volatility. i'm just a living volcano in a human body. tend to go on violent eruptions once in awhile, except its more frequent and it almost cost me to lose someone i love very much.

and yea, although things are ok now, but something is amiss yet again. and i know i need to rebuild e love once more. so feel kinda sad.

well hope for e best for me. and i might keep this blog a private one, might give assess if can to ppl i trust.