e person i felt the most apologetic to is her..as her bf that time, i thought i was good.. but my temper wasnt good, and resulted in violent actions and shouting at her saying all those senseless things..i guess sometimes the things i do really cost me alot..and it cost me her..but now no matter how much i still think of e past, no matter part of me still wish she was still with me, no matter a part of me still love her, but its kind of hard already..i'm like gonna be out of her life,but i at some point dun wish to cos i still wan to turn back time to be with her..suddenly i thought of all e promises made to her, and i thought i'm like nvr made up to her properly like e dan bing that i said i will figure out hw to do when coming back from taiwan..these little promises and little things in life let me thought how bad i was as a person at that time..but now say all these also useless..i some sort became like her also..dunno wad i wan now too..dunno wad to do with myself..i just wish i can play god and turn back time and erase that day from her mind and my mind too..i'm sorry to you..

now i really need that belly laugh.. =(