pekchek again..when theres no one ard, u just like to think of the past..the present gets affected..and i'm damn pekchek over it liao..i just wanna study and haf as much fun as i can..but have to see how..sometimes things wont go away..

F1 is cool..i liked it..and like the time i spend out on fri night with py..i swear with her ard i gonna not stop laughing..

wow..today meant to be a study session ..but guess just din have the mood in the morning..not the study prime time..sian man..so like kind of wasted the time out but i liked today..
met py for study de..but seriously no mood man..wa hols also like mug like mad..how can..i must at least enjoy abit..so ya did abit of stuff den go slack ard le..ate at crystal jade..yummy..lols..her bday present from me..den went home hibernate now going to mug le..

i must make up my mind..harden my heart and not keep going back to the same stuff..really man..i shall let her go and let myself go too..no point keep holding on to her when she wont care abt u anymore..why not divert ur energy to other places that can help u be happier..tmr i shall do it..but today i just pray for her to study hard and enjoy her life..like how i found part of me when i had fun with my gang..10 % of wad i was b4 when i knew wads love..

i feel lonely..and there's alot of things that remind me of the times with her..wonderful but nvr gonna happen again..i myself will not want to get e r/s back..as i realised i've not really been treated very well..happy with her company but really happy deep down? i not really sure..i cant deny every nw and then will miss her..but its time to let go..my mid terms so far..not very encouraging..and with more tests coming up..i can only keep working hard..

its really complicated now lor my life..at first i thought this person wil be my source of laughter in sch..but i nvr knw she faced e same problem as me..we just cant forget e past we had..seeing this person just like me..i felt like treating her better and protecting her to some extent..but really doing this may seems funny to others..and myself..r/s is 2 way..and i want my next one to be a good one..i had my first one..unforgettable..not regretable..but its a lost la..nv will forget the good times..and nv will forget when i need support she wasnt there..i also need support in my life..but she chose not to stand by me except my parents and michelle..my good female buddy..i hope my life can better from nw on..

whats up so far

well broke up for close to 3 weeks..not a word of concern at all..so think i just can let her go ba..no point making myself miserable..just look forward in sch lor..no choice ma..there will be other things to focus on too..esp my studies..althought i broke up at the wrong time, it wasnt my choice..just felt badly treated and i din deserve such break up at a time when my studies is going to be tough and all..well..i just stand up by myself and with the help of my family and a couple of good frens like michelle..now i will be stronger and at least now i know what i look in love and a person..still will get distracted here and there but i will focus on studies and career..hoping to close some cases soon la and get things started at least..i will be fine..uni stuff is definately getting a few notches higher than jc..i shall utilize my upcoming term break well and find ppl to study with me if nt i stay home will get distracted..i haven movied or shopped for a long time..need some company some day..if nt i gonna go crazy..sch definately stress.
i think my health is nt very good now..today fainted..cos i was lying down to mug den i stood up den heart very pain den i fainted liao..took some time to wake up..faster go drink water after that le..scary la..haix..when things dun go ur way u are down on ur luck..anything can happen..

i'm going to buy a bible and keep it by my side and use it as my spiritual support.

god bless me den..