i feel lonely..and there's alot of things that remind me of the times with her..wonderful but nvr gonna happen again..i myself will not want to get e r/s back..as i realised i've not really been treated very well..happy with her company but really happy deep down? i not really sure..i cant deny every nw and then will miss her..but its time to let go..my mid terms so far..not very encouraging..and with more tests coming up..i can only keep working hard..

its really complicated now lor my life..at first i thought this person wil be my source of laughter in sch..but i nvr knw she faced e same problem as me..we just cant forget e past we had..seeing this person just like me..i felt like treating her better and protecting her to some extent..but really doing this may seems funny to others..and myself..r/s is 2 way..and i want my next one to be a good one..i had my first one..unforgettable..not regretable..but its a lost la..nv will forget the good times..and nv will forget when i need support she wasnt there..i also need support in my life..but she chose not to stand by me except my parents and michelle..my good female buddy..i hope my life can better from nw on..